Sunday, November 16, 2008
i'm in a very interesting mood today. i don't really know quite how to describe it. part of me feels very motivated and the other part feels very blah. i also can't think of anything interesting to really put on this blog right now, so i guess i'll just use it as a tool to note my moods. haha.
here is the positive stuff first:
i'm doing an excellent job this year thinking of presents to buy my friends and family this holiday season. i am also doing an excellent job of being an online shopping detective in order to find great prices for my ideas. i love to buy gifts for the people i love. i mean, i really love it. i think i know exactly where ALL of my money goes: food and gifts for other people. no, honestly. i'm being sincere when i say that every penny goes to eating and drinking out, buying presents for people and then paying off the food and presents i put on my credit card. yeah, so because i am doing so excellent at my bargain shopping, i've decided to also donate to a charity for each of my family members and best friends. but i am going to pick charities which remind me of them and donate in their name. isn't that spectacular? one of my top three presents i have ever received in my life was the christmas of 2006. elizabeth and chris adopted me an alligator from the Audubon society for the year, because they know how much i am in love with alligators. that was amazing. i loved it. best present, and i am still so thankful for it. so hopefully, i find some really good causes.
i'm also in a great mood because i got my first christmas card. from one of my clients. i'm so grateful for them.
reasons why i am in a negative mood:
i'm stressed out with work. i've been working seven days a week for a while now. i took almost 2 weeks off for my vacation in georgia, my birthday weekend, and amy's birthday off. (but that is it since the beginning of july) i'm not stressed because i work every day. i just feel like nothing i can do is good enough at work lately. i've got so much to complete and not enough time or available tools to get it done during the week. then now, at my weekend job, i just agreed to pick up a client and start a caseload. (why? who knows. maybe i was in the holiday spirit, but i know i sure as hell am not getting a raise for it.) i know it won't be too much work, its just that believe it or not, i come here to relax. and now i need to make sure that i'm helping another being get the best care possible. if i do my job, i want to do it well.
here is the positive stuff first:
i'm doing an excellent job this year thinking of presents to buy my friends and family this holiday season. i am also doing an excellent job of being an online shopping detective in order to find great prices for my ideas. i love to buy gifts for the people i love. i mean, i really love it. i think i know exactly where ALL of my money goes: food and gifts for other people. no, honestly. i'm being sincere when i say that every penny goes to eating and drinking out, buying presents for people and then paying off the food and presents i put on my credit card. yeah, so because i am doing so excellent at my bargain shopping, i've decided to also donate to a charity for each of my family members and best friends. but i am going to pick charities which remind me of them and donate in their name. isn't that spectacular? one of my top three presents i have ever received in my life was the christmas of 2006. elizabeth and chris adopted me an alligator from the Audubon society for the year, because they know how much i am in love with alligators. that was amazing. i loved it. best present, and i am still so thankful for it. so hopefully, i find some really good causes.
i'm also in a great mood because i got my first christmas card. from one of my clients. i'm so grateful for them.
reasons why i am in a negative mood:
i'm stressed out with work. i've been working seven days a week for a while now. i took almost 2 weeks off for my vacation in georgia, my birthday weekend, and amy's birthday off. (but that is it since the beginning of july) i'm not stressed because i work every day. i just feel like nothing i can do is good enough at work lately. i've got so much to complete and not enough time or available tools to get it done during the week. then now, at my weekend job, i just agreed to pick up a client and start a caseload. (why? who knows. maybe i was in the holiday spirit, but i know i sure as hell am not getting a raise for it.) i know it won't be too much work, its just that believe it or not, i come here to relax. and now i need to make sure that i'm helping another being get the best care possible. if i do my job, i want to do it well.
and i also watched "life as a house" today at work. it made me depressed. its such a beautiful movie, but i'm in a sensitive mood about death, cancer, family and misunderstandings today. probably because i watched the movie and it got me thinking about all of those subjects. but its making me feel very mellow right now.
i need to snap out of this blahness and do something i enjoy.
unfortunately, the only thing i can think to do when i get out of work is laundry and cleaning my apartment. i live such a wild life for a single girl in her twenties!
there was a gas spill on the highway on my way to work, and from what i understand, the highway is still shut down. if that's still the case when i get out of here, then i am going to home goods to do some christmas shopping for myself. my mom keeps asking me what i want, and i've decided instead of giving her an idea for a practical gift, i am going to spoil myself this year. i want a fancy painting or mirror or globe or something fun and funky i can decorate with. oh home goods makes me feel damn good. since i don't do drugs, places like home goods and world market give me a serious high. i don't understand why people use drugs if they could just go shopping for decorations.
anyway, little erin out. and like i would say to one of my clients: "it was nice doing business with you."
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