Monday, February 09, 2009
you know what i just realized when i was perusing my reader?
i was reading someone's blog who hadn't really updated since the beginning of january, and she said: "2009 is going to be my year to SHINE." then she listed a whole bunch of goals (one of which included blogging regularly). when i was reading it, i giggled and thought to myself, "oh, i too was ambitious at the beginning of the year!"
then i realized that i slightly have let the ball drop. don't get me wrong, i'm still kind of motivated. i've traveled; i've acted. i've cleaned and organized. i've read more; i became a grad student. but the level of motivation is low. i want it to be high again.
i don't expect to stay highly motivated to better myself 100% of the time. i know that is not feasible. people are not super happy every day of their life. but, in looking back: i was very sad, very miserable for the first half of 2008. i never want to go back to that place. i want to take care of myself. i want to meet a man who allows me to remain independent, yet betters me with his presence. i want to apply to a graduate program. i want a new job. i want to spend more time with friends. i want to make new friends. i want to enjoy alone time. i want to travel. i want to feel passionate about some things. i want to be more creative.
i don't want to settle for anything. i want to shine in 2009.
i was reading someone's blog who hadn't really updated since the beginning of january, and she said: "2009 is going to be my year to SHINE." then she listed a whole bunch of goals (one of which included blogging regularly). when i was reading it, i giggled and thought to myself, "oh, i too was ambitious at the beginning of the year!"
then i realized that i slightly have let the ball drop. don't get me wrong, i'm still kind of motivated. i've traveled; i've acted. i've cleaned and organized. i've read more; i became a grad student. but the level of motivation is low. i want it to be high again.
i don't expect to stay highly motivated to better myself 100% of the time. i know that is not feasible. people are not super happy every day of their life. but, in looking back: i was very sad, very miserable for the first half of 2008. i never want to go back to that place. i want to take care of myself. i want to meet a man who allows me to remain independent, yet betters me with his presence. i want to apply to a graduate program. i want a new job. i want to spend more time with friends. i want to make new friends. i want to enjoy alone time. i want to travel. i want to feel passionate about some things. i want to be more creative.
i don't want to settle for anything. i want to shine in 2009.
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I only made very small new years resolutions: blogging a bit more and leaving a few more comments. People tend to be too hard on themselves when it comes to resolutions. If people have not done something before the new year, then the new year is not going to necessarily make it happen either.
In 2007 I was pretty unhappy with the hand life had dealt me. So I can empathize with wanting to do new things and move on from the past. It was tricky as part of being unhappy stemmed from me still working on my phd which I could not let go of. Now that I'm closer to finishing I'm excited and scared at the same time.
Hope 2009 brings what you want it to.